So remember like a while ago that I talked about how I was going to change up my life by going to the gym more often and stuff, like every day.
— Yeah, so that didn’t happen —
This post was written in August and I was SO inspired to make some healthy life choices to utilize my gym membership more; much more than I currently (obviously) do. I give blame to my laziness to three factors:
- Work is tough — and when you work long, extended hours, the last thing you want to do is to go to the gym and expect energy to flow out.
- Mornings didn’t work — I also tried a stint of time where I woke up ridiculously early to attempt going to the gym; part of a “no excuses” objective. Yeah that failed because bed.
- Excuses. Plain and simple.
So if I were to make a pact from here on, do I truly believe that I will hold to the expectations of this new-found courage?
Yes/No. I am going to still try going in the morning, but I have found that my ‘expectation’ of getting to work by 8 a.m. is prescriptive of me. Why not wake up when I normally do (6 a.m.) and go to the gym then. Nothing has changed except ‘when’ I get to work. Sure I might roll into work around 8:30 a.m., but if I stay until 5:30 on a consistent basis and work through my lunch hour, why am I afraid to show up late?
Secondly, I am going to do something that I have never done before. I’m going to start a fitness blog/Tumblr. I am honestly sick of making excuses for myself and not seeing results in both my ability to hold true to my goals. I am also going to do this because I suffer from body image issues and, while I am definitely not someone who posts pictures of themselves shirtless on the Internet, it might actually help me overcome my dysmorphia.
Unfortunately (or possibly fortunately), this won’t be shared here, on my Twitter or Facebook, or even my personal Tumblr account. However, I think if I make public my routine, my journey, my road to self discover, this might stick and I likely will be happy with the result. I am not a gay who is obsessed with his body, but I’m a gay who is tired of the body that has put him through so much. I want to see in the mirror that which I want to see but have not yet obtained. I know I can get there, and I want people to be part of my journey.
What do you think? I would love to hear your feedback to this newfound plan. Comment below.